Solipsist

An amazing work directed by Andrew Thomas Huang

It's amazing how art can take you into a world of its own. When I first watched this I thought it was awesome... Blew litto Rav away matey! Maybe one day ill be able to pursue my secret dream of becoming a director (perhaps one day *sniff*).

What I got from this piece:
You can only truly know yourself through your own mind. Perhaps actualizing what you are through another will never prove successful, because you cannot understand the other. Interesting how in the end all the creatures that attempted to combine with another, couldn't... and there was a giant explosion. Its just sayin,  "hai, yeah, hi bud... that's not going to work out". O__o

Well this is an awesome work of art that I just wanted to share with you guys. :) Cheers till next time eat lossaa goodies and be happy :')

~YEE YEE!

Life Goes By Fast Doesn't It?

A beautiful photograph that I got off of the Blog of Franscesco Mugnai

Time really does fly... It's interesting that we all know every single human being holds the same burden of death as we do, yet we think people are too different from us. We procrastinate in life, by putting off what our intuition tells us to do, then look back at our lives and realize we wasted it on caring for things that didn't matter and people who didn't matter. My worst fear is looking back at my life when I'm old and ripe... and thinking about things that could have been...

Oh hai, it's just another day...

Finally off work! *sigh* I had quite an odd day today… A customer got pissed at me for making a mistake with his points redemption (-__-) and after much experimentation with the cash till thingy I just gave the dude a 10 dollar gift card… He freaked out and said I wasted his points because a gift card takes more points than getting individual items. So at this point I could not care less… -___- I gave the dude his card and blankly stared at him. Damn tourists… But the question is and will always remain for me… why can’t people control their damn emotions. Chill man they’re “points”. The dude was getting all worked up like he just lost 25 trillion dollars or something. Jezz calm down.  

                After my morning epic fail I sat down to peacefully drink some coffee with mama Sehmbi. But Ohh no, that’s too much to ask from the universe… As I took what seemed like my third sip of deliciousness, I somehow tipped the cup and spilled it all over the table, my seat and my mom, thankfully it wasn’t hot but common man, what’s wrong with you Rav!? So I grabbed some paper towels and cleaned up evidence of my oh-so-graceful nature.

                So I clean up the mess and sit down on my seat. The store was empty so I decided to sort some magazine that newly came in. I pick up the first and I realized the top covers of some had scratches on them and I started to feel the top… (I don’t know why, I just did it… don’t you ever touch scratches? It’s just natural). You know when you don’t notice something but when you look at it you notice it? Yeah that kinda happened, so I didn’t look at the magazine cover but when I paid attention to what was on the cover it ended up being some weird sexual adult magazine (we usually send those back to the magazine companies) and a man walked in from the side door only to see me touching the top of this magazine… the man commented “Ouhh so you having fun?” JESUS… just my luck… no, no I am not having fun. I looked like I was caressing the damn buttox of an erotically positioned female. Fantastic… just great. 

                So I finish up with the magazines and decided to grab a Dr. Pepper cherry, so if you know me you know I love Dr. Pepper… but I also love cherry coke… so when you mix them… it’s like heavenly. So anyways I grabbed this beverage from heaven and sat down. I saw some people about to come into the store so I opened the drink and chugged a bit (not a good idea… the bubbles… burpies.. oh jebus help me). So these people approach the cash to pay and I’m silently burping to myself hoping they don’t hear me… the last thing a person needs is the cashier burping in their face. By sheer force of habit I always say “excuse me” after a litto burpie… So as I was quietly (ninja styles) burping to myself I meant to say to a customer “thank you, have a good day” and ended up saying “Excuse you, have a good day” the man looked at me confused and maybe even slightly offended as I smiled and handed him his receipt. He took his receipt and walked out staring at me still and looking confused. So I got confused… then I realized what I said -___- But still I mean what’s the big deal… why did he get so confuzzled?

                For some reason today I kept dropping peoples change everywhere. I mean why pass a customer their change when you can just throw it at them right? No Rav, that’s not the way it works. Apparently I need to brush up on my basic motor skills.

 I was also especially slow today. I thought someone pumped gas and drove away. Only to realized I already cashed them out before, and was looking at someone else’s due amount. So that moment of panic when I think I had a drive-off… twas in vein….

So anyways… I had an odd day today. You know, its one of those days where you keep messing up on everything you attempt. I was so graceful today… truly (that was sarcasm…) After making stupid mistakes and spilling/dropping everything throughout the day I sat down to do some paper work and organize some bills. I ended up taking a miniature nap and I think I dreamt about samurais O_o. I realized that I’ve just been heavily sleep deprived and I feel like I can accurately attribute today’s consecutive failures and misunderstandings to that. Makes me realize how much I don’t want classes to begin again… gah. Sleep deprivation, exams, assignments, due dates, more coffee in your blood stream then blood O_O (ah yes, let the good times roll).  

But hey it’s just another day. -___-

Till next time lovers, tis Rav signing off!

~YEE YEE

Hearts&sheit… try to get some sleep… :’) 

LOL ....

We All Have Social Anxiety to a Certain Extent

I met a guy a few weeks back who said he had social anxiety. He was a chilled out dude and you wouldn’t think he felt anxiety around people because he looked relatively comfortable. We continued our conversation and he said he took pills for his anxiety. He said that when he was younger he thought   it was really “uncool”, but the older he grew the more he realized it was natural. We had a brief conversation on judgement, anxiety about the future and a little bit of psychology stuff. He was a cool cat, and it was nice to meet someone who was more… Mm open about things? Yeah I think that’s it. Usually when you meet people they don’t elaborate on their anxieties or talk much about their fears but this guy did, which was cool. Twas nice. Twas refreshing.

This guy struck me as an all-around good person, maybe sensitive and a little shy. We talked about anxieties and focused on how people miss out on life because their thinking too much about their past or are too fearful about their future. I was about to bust out a Buddha quote… but I figured it wasn’t the right time. But for you guys… this is what flashed in my head “the secret of health in body and mind is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.” It’s definitely a hard thing to do that’s for sure. I know for me, living in the present is especially difficult. I’m constantly stressing about something stupid I might have said or how I know I have no future (here we go again, you get the stretcher I’ll get the chocolates… [to wake her up of course]). But the truth is we forget today for moments that have far past and for ones we don’t know. I guess in the end it all relates to having a sense of inner peace and being able to simply let go and just… be. You definitely need a sense of inner peace to be able to accept that you can’t control everything, and you need to let go.

We talked about how his social anxiety is related to how he has a fear of being judged. He joked around saying “there’s something about eye contact that freaks me out” after which I made direct eye contact with him and stared intently… while slowly twitching one eye. He just kinda stared at me… I hope he understood that was a joke… and I’m not really that creepy (but oh well). Through conversation I realized a lot of his fears were the same as mine. “You’re scared of judgement because you assume others judge you as harshly as you judge yourself”. I looked at him and he agreed. Can we assume those that are not scared of judgements are not as tough on themselves? Maybe we can maybe that’s why they’re so free.  

Everyone is scared of judgement to a certain extent, they are scared of being sliced apart and analyzed, they’re scared of being rejected and reminded that they don’t really have a purpose. A lot of people find their own purpose in others. The meaning of life you could say is fulfilled by appreciation. You are surrounded by people who like you, admire you and you are instantly given purpose. When someone likes you or appreciates you they give you permission to be what you are at that moment, its saying “hey, that’s acceptable” simple operant conditioning. When they like you, you feel special… the truth is everyone on this planet wants to feel special in some way, we want to know that we are important in some way, shape or form—we want purpose.

Flirting always confused me. One day I asked a (flirtatious) friend of mine… “hey… why do you flirt?” to which she responded “cuz its fun”. So I asked myself why she might feel like it’s fun. You are gaining approval from someone when you’re flirting back and forth with them. They are fuelling your sense of confidence, they are indirectly giving you purpose. I have never been able to flirt nor do I think I’ll be able to… jus sayin… that would be the most awkward conversation ever. The most I’ve done is used a super cheesy pick up line on (a really cute) dude who looked like he was a part of some sort of SWAT team or something… (I REGRET NOTHING… although any fragments of dignity I had may have virtually dissipated into the heavens above). So maybe the real reason why people are so scared of being judged is because there is that chance that the other person won’t like you—that moment when you are reminded you have no ultimate purpose.

When you’re afraid to approach someone because you’re scared they’re going to reject you, go for it anyways. Perhaps when our sense of purpose holds its roots in others we will continue to be afraid of judgement, it’s when you can pull that sense of purpose into a permanent spot within the self, is when peoples judgements towards you don’t matter. It’s a hard thing, but doable. So I guess approach an acquaintance and start talking… chances are that they’re feeling just as vulnerable as you are.

That’s all for now ladies and gents. It was refreshing to meet this sweet young fellow, hopefully I’ll bump into him again and get to have another conversation. Till next time Turrah! (yes that was an art attack reference and if you don’t know that show I don’t want to be your friend anymore… yes just leave. Never come back… okay I’m joking… but seriously what’s wrong with you?)

~YEE YEE!

Hearts&Sheit…and shitty pick up lines!